The words are written in the sand

My first night at home was pretty amazing. I got here at 2am, my mom and I stayed up till 6, talkingg and we made breakfast and finally fell asleep. We seriously had some real talk, relationships, every thing. I love her so much and i missed her a lot. And tonight with the girls and caleb was amazing. Some guy asked for my number and he was really cute. I’m tired and happy. Goodnight

During this time tomorrow I’ll be on my way home. It feels like forever. I just need this last midterm to go well. I’ve studied up and down, but I’m not sure if it’s enough and at the same time I think I over study. I’ll go over my note cards two more times tonight and I’ll be done. First, I need to finish packing because I just don’t want to care about it tomorrow and I need to clean my room. I hate having to get to the bus station by myself, I’m deciding to save money and take the metro instead of a cab. Once I’m there I’ll be fine and my worries will be gone.

After this break will be easter break where I’ll be taking a ton of crap home, going back to school for two more weeks and home for almost four months. I’m doing some serious travelling this summer. It’s perfect time to end my freshman year, perfect weather and yeah.

gooodnight.

At this moment, well not exactly but close enough to this moment, I am studying for my Western Tradition midterm tomorrow at 11 am. I think I’ll be ready, I mean I actually find this stuff interesting. I’m engrossed in this class and my European History II class. So, I don’t mind studying at all or doing the readings. It’s like leisure reading pretty much and its helped expand my brain and thinking and understanding of events. I’ve formed my own opinions by reading this, and I’ve come to understand that the Constitution is probably the most unique document ever written indirectly and directly based on the hebrews, greeks and the Iroquois confederacy. I think I’m ready for whatever essay may come to me on this test.

on another note, VA BEACH IN 4 days. I will be arriving home at 2am saturday! I could go and do something, that’s like perfect timing to go and cause chaos but I think I just want to curl up on the couch with my mom and fall asleep. Please let it be semi-warm because I’m so ready to wear the clothes I bought in NY. Spring is my love, forget summer. I’m just ready to go to the National Mall and have a picnic in the field, dressing up in cute spring dresses/outfits and taking pictures. I want to experience spring DC. Also, I’m pretty happy I get out the last week of April. It’s perfect timing to enjoy the last bit of spring.

Everyone has double standards, some more than others. I have one thing that just makes me made when someone does it. I hate it when other people do it and I find myself doing it once in a while. I’m working on it though. I promise that.

it’s rare for me to have a bad day. it’s rare for me to feel so gross and bad about myself that I can’t stand looking in the mirror. it’s rare for me to feel so anxious that I can’t sit down and concentrate. It’s rare for me to be emotional and want to curl up and cry.

however, today is that day.

In the end I need to just suck it up because I have too much I need to get donee.

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your integrity fades

your passion blossoms

you’ve become lost in a world of views

Views, not originated by you

Views, not made to be your own

I’m just going to write. I have no clue why I have such trouble writing in this blog, I didn’t have any issues in my old one. I don’t think it’s lack of anything to say, because there is so much that runs through my mind. For instance, Something that I continuously ponder about is how unemotional I am. I wonder if it’s a bad thing. It just seems so rare for me to be upset by something. Yeah, things may not go the way I want and I’ll think about it but I won’t go around crying about it or getting upset with people.

A guy doesn’t talk to you for a while, so what? Yeah, I’ve had crushes and a relationship that didn’t exactly work out, but there’s more to life than this. It’s disappointing, but I’m not going to go to him yelling and asking why he hasn’t talked to me, if he decided to waste my time not being truthful and such then I’m not going to waste my time. It seems that everyone is so hung up on relationships that it’s defining who they are rather than letting it be a part of their lives and enjoying and learning from it. Still, I will never claim to be an expert on relationships because I am far from understanding them and choose to take it as it comes.

Someone doesn’t like me? whatever, that’s their issue and choose. I mean there are times when I just don’t like someone when I first meet them but I’ll chose not to judge. It bothers me how people feel they have the power and right to judge other people, for the things they do and the way they act. Even I’m guilty of this and I stop myself or change my thoughts. But really, we don’t know the trust circumstance and there is someone more powerful who will do the judging in the end. I just don’t feel that everyone is bad.

In the end, I just take things as they come. I’m not perfect, at times being unemotional is bad. At times me being unemotional can be when I’m bottling things up instead of talking about it with that person. Really, though, it’s just me realizing what’s most important about getting emotional about and just learning from it or changing it or fixing it.

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People to Invite to Your Dream Dinner Party, Dead or Alive.
1. Adam Young 
2. Marie Antoinette 
3. Lights
4. Anne Frank
5. Orien (from a book)

5 Bands/Musicians I’ve been Listening to A lot Lately.
1. Owl City
2. Analog Rebellion
3. Phoenix
4. Between the Trees
5. Jeremih

5 Things I’m Addicted To.
1. Music
2. Fashion
3. European History
4. Laptop
5. Chai Tea

Biggest Celebrity Crushes.
1. Adam Young
2. Lights
3. Hugh Dancy
4. Zooey Dechanel
5. Cristopher Drew

Songs I Can’t Stop Listening to at the Moment.
1. ”Halo” Major Lazer 
2. “Summer days” Phoenix
3. “You got me” Colbie Caillat 
4. “I wouldn’t Mind” Duncan Sheik
5.”Sunburn” Owl City

Best TV Shows.
1. My Life as Liz
2. Ugly Betty
3. Life Unexpected 
4. Gossip Girls
5. The Buried Life

Your Dream Future: 1 Job/1 City/1 Car/1 Spouse/1 Pet.
1. Historian that travels around
2. Athens
3. don’t knoww
4. Adam Young
5. Panda

5 Things that Always Cheer Me Up.
1. Music (especially owl city)
2. Sleeping 
3. Friendss
4. White Chocolate Macadamia Nut cookies
5. European History

Things I Hate With a Passion.
1. Being mimicked 
2. people thinking they have the right to judge
3. people that don’t appreciate culture, differences. 
4. death penalty 
5. being lied to rather than told the truth

Bands I’ve Seen Live in Concert.
1. Owl City
2. All time Low 
3. Shwayze and LMFAO
4. The Maine
5. 30h!3

5 Things that Remind You of Your Best Friend.
1. Partying
2. Owl City and NeverShoutNever 
3. Camel Crush
4. History
5. Hookah Bars

Favorite Actors/Actresses.
1. Shahruhk Khan
2. Hugh Dancy
3. Zooey Dechanel
4. Kajol
5. Joseph Gordon-levitt

TV Shows You’ve Seen Every Episode of.
1.Ugly Betty
2. Gossip Girls 
3. The Secret life of an American Teenager
4. Arthur 
5. Curious George

Put Your iPod on Shuffle-What are the First 5 Songs that come up?
1. “Anne” Santigold 
2. “Air Traffic” Owl City
3. “Music is my Hot, Hot sex” css
4. “Your cry a tear to start a river” Between the Trees
5. “Sally is a…” Shwayze

“Open the window so Shelby can see all the snow.” -Alishiya “All I can see is the screen.” -Shelby “Okay” -Marissa *Marissa pushes screen and it falls* “OH MY GOD!!!” -Alishiya and Marissa *Rolling on the floor with laughter*
“We want you to see us get the screen” -Marissa and Alishiya *Pull computer…computer unplugs and shuts off…Alishiya grabs Marissa’s computer…everything becomes unplugged…Alishiya adds a random person on skype…back on skype with Shelby…put computer in window*
“Okay watch us get the screen”-Alishiya *Alishiya and Marissa grab boots and run past 20 people watching a movie in the lobby…Marissa and Alishiya are wearing shorts and leggings with T-shirts…Marissa and Alishiya run into the snow, grab the screen, play in the snow and yell up at Shelby, then run back inside…Everyone in the lobby gets quiet*”Is that a window screen?” -Random person in the lobby “Yes”-Marissa *Marissa and Alishiya run back in room* Best thing that happened to me in the span of 5 minutes.